im so disappointed . . . .
silly me, i always forget this saying
"期望越大 ，失望越大"
maybe cant blame me
on special days which may not hold such deep meaning
you did so much for me
but that day was not just normal Valentines', its also our one year
the sincerity, the things you did was totally unexpected
totally disappointing
maybe it cant be like before cause we just get together
of course that period will be the sweetest
but i really didnt expected it to be so disappointing
so heartbreaking when i got to know things got even worst
you were guilty when you get to know how disappointed i am
yes i feel it and i feel your sincerity when you apologise
talk with no action = do nothing
it doesnt amend anything
will amend but not now? oh god, my heart broke more
got to wait more than 6 months perhaps
ive been waiting for you to buy that nice apple strudel which you told me
for more than 6 months ago
i nag for so many times you think i was just playing and didnt do it
too lazy to travel right?
tired and you got low blood pressure, you feel tired easily ?
these are all excuses to me now

i was so touched that you came all the way to deliver medicine for me
when that time i was just having some common sickness like cough
that was few days after we got together
and thats the only one time you came all the way just to pass me something
just one time..
i was hoping for more since you said its common
but it never happened
even if i didnt pick up ur call when we quarrel
even if im feeling this disappointed
you never showed up
when i told you so and so came all the way
and waited for her cause she was angry with him
you told me its so bo liao.
i did as much as hinting you that i would love that
but you never do it
if you came all the way empty handed
but just to give a hug cause i freaking cried due to the huge disappointment i get
i will be satisfied and contented
at least it show how sincerity you are along with your words

i hate it whenever you raise your voice which you claim you didnt
i seriously hate it.
it make me feel so unreasonable when everything is so obvious
you are so stupid like i always tell you
best thing is you still cant get it.

Jarelyn wrote; it's complicating. 11:30 PM